Maraming araw nang nagdaan

Mula nung ikaw ay aking unang namasdan

Sarili ko’y hindi maintindihan

Dahil ika’y di maalis sa aking isipan

 

Sa tuwina’y ninanais kang makita

Pag andyan ka nama’y nagtatago sa hiya

Ano nga ba ang aking nadarama?

Sa iyo ba ay nahuhulog na?

 

Ano nga bang mahika ang taglay mo?

Sa tuwing andyan ka’y natutulala sayo.

Di ko rin lubos maintindihan sarili ko,

Maipapaliwanang mo ba ang damdaming ito?

 

Sa unang pagkita natin ay di naman ganito

Di ko napansin ang taglay na ganda mo

Dahil siguro’y kaibigan ang pagtingin sayo

Ngunit ngayo’y bigla nalang nagkaganito

 

Di mawari ang nararapat na gawin

Makailang gabi kong pinag isipan rin

Sana’y may makapagpaliwanag sa akin

Ukol sa aking damdamin

 

Ninanais na ika’y parating nariyan

Pagkat lubos ang aking kaligayahan

Sa sobrang saya’y baka di ko mapigilan

Iyong mga pisngi ay aking halikan

 

Maipapahiwatig ko kaya ang lahat sa iyo?

Ano kaya ang magiging reaksyon mo?

Tatanggapin mo ba ang nadarama sa iyo?

O sa akin ay umiwas at lumayo?

 

-By Antukin076 12-2-15

21 Tries

 

I.

The dreams in the vast horizons,

Entwined to the road of infinity,

From its first blossom to metamorphosis

It’s grandeur and never ending bloom.

II.

“Ding-dong” calls the chances,

Letting it echo in my head.

Got some questions, got it covered.

What would I do to live it in joy?

III.

Is this the chaotic war in humanity?

To be confused and feeling like exploding,

With thoughts I’ve kept inside,

Therefore, this should stop.

IV.

Where would I stand?

Let the river flow?

or go against the current?

Let me distance with these decisions.

V.

The birds that fly along the mountains,

Any bird will do as long as it deviate my mind,

Blocking its view in my eyes,

But never the heart in distraction.

VI.

Living through the life I wanted,

Translating the voices in my head,

Connecting the dots along the choices I make,

To be puzzled by the thought of love.

VII.

Love? How can I say it best?

How can I defend myself from its terrible will?

Give me my fair trial…

I’m not yet ready to be imprisoned forever.

VIII.

There are bunch of things on my mind right now,

Proceeding to the negativity at its own way,

Following all the commutative laws of the norm,

Tell me my heart, what do I stand for?

IX.

Keep me away from the fire of love,

I might die from its burning desire.

Forgive me my dearest heart,

You are something I can’t endure.

X.

To whom can I rely?

Can you me why?

Writing my own thoughts,

To whom can I quote?

XI.

This truth at the back of my mind,

To which I cannot deny.

Am I falling for him all along?

Or was this just a created confusion?

XII.

I cannot define what’s inside my bottled feelings,

So afraid of what it could reveal.

Inside of me, no one holds the key,

But only Him alone knows where the door held.

XIII.

Tell me I’m insane and weak,

For simplicity sake, I still insist:

“I’m not in love! I’m not,I’m not”

As the shouts exploded, my heart cried.

XIV.

To love and to be loved in return,

Isn’t it wonderful dear Almie?

Says the crying heart

But how can I know if he is the One?

XV.

As far as I know,

My heart is in alarm,

Torn between the thought of falling,

Am I going to fall in love? or fall into pieces?

XVI.

Hundreds? Thousands? It might be Millions…

Millions of butterflies attacking my belly,

Feelings I cannot comprehend,

Because you were just a dream I once knew.

XVII.

Why am I like this nowadays?

Longed to hold someone’s arms.

I just can’t believe this is happening inside my system,

I never thought, I would be right for you.

XVIII.

Is there something that is much greater than love?

It’s a thing I cannot drive at my control.

My will is weakened by it’s powerful clash,

Can I just give in and let it flow me?

XIX.

Show me the road to light,

I cannot conquer its bright.

Blinded by the shine it brings,

Filled with magic coated with weirdness feelings.

XX.

I have doubted myself a hundred times,

In any ways, I find resolutions,

To fulfill my mind with hope,

To still have faith in love and the joy it brings…

XXI.

Remembering the happiness I felt whenever I’m with you,

From the first time you uttered my name,

I smile and wondered, my world became new,

How can I stop myself from falling in love with you?

 

 

Letters to Words to Phrases to Sentences to Feelings

Every single letter

that makes up the matter,

Of this and that,

From where I sat.

Every single word

that comes with worth,

Such things to wonder,

Those files in folder.

Every single phrase

Accounts to any craze.

Oh! such hanging thoughts,

That were never told.

Every single sentence

Comes with the essence,

That could make the mind happy,

Or that could make the mind grumpy.

Every single feeling,

Keeping me falling,

How can I deny?

To whom can I rely?

Every single unsent letter,

Compose of words that enter,

Striking the heart from phrases to sentences,

Stuck to the feeling of hollowness.

11/7/15

-AlmieJ.

Playlist

Roses are red,

Violets are blue,

Louie is my brother,

I’ll always remember you.

Track I: Photograph, Ed Sheeran

As I try to look in your eyes, to follow some hint how to read upon your deepest thoughts, to have a glance on your “I’ll miss you” gestures, oh yes and you know what’s painful about to observe? it’s the hardest to look the wave of your hands…My dear little bro, this might be the thoughts running through your mind:

“And I know I’ll never be able to handle the hollowness I get when it is time to part ways. I break. I’ve done it all before, and every time is worse.

I have a choice to make. And it’s a big one. But I need to make all of the small choices first. I have to choose to keep going. To breathe. To be calm. Because I am not alone. And this was not goodbye. And if I can just fight through the crazy, I will be fine. “- LOUIE JADE

Asking for forgiveness, “Sorry manang kung kulang ta time”

No, you shouldn’t Hijo, those times we were together, having such a worthwhile conversations that I will never ever forget.

Track II: No good in goodbye, The Script

Just think about the good things,

On what sunshine will bring,

Think about the wide smiles,

That makes your life worthwhile.

Think about the cool times,

When you’re about to rhyme.

Think about how the birds fly,

As if you need not to cry.

Think about how the wind blows,

Our friendship always flows.

Think about our songs,

Letting you remember to never go wrong.

Think about the best of the best,

this is just a friendship test.

Think about the old ways,

Of yourself going nae-nae. (haha)

Think about positivity,

when you’re clouded with negativity.

Think about how the flowers bloom,

Someday, you’ll be an awesome groom.

Think about how I kept this going,

because words aren’t enough to express feelings.

Think about this song,

I intend to play all along:

All the things that we’ve lost
Breaking up comes at a cost
I know I’ll miss this mistake
Every word I try to choose
Either way I’m gonna lose
Can’t take the ache from heartbreak

Oh, but as you walk away
You don’t hear me say

Where’s the “good” in “goodbye”?
Where’s the “nice” in “nice try”?
Where’s the “us” in “trust” gone?
Where’s the “soul” in “soldier on”?
Now I’m the “low” in “lonely”
‘Cause I don’t own you only
I can take this mistake
But I can’t take the ache from heartbreak

No, I can’t take the ache from heartbreak

No matter how it falls apart
There’s an “art” in breaking hearts
But there’s no fair in farewell, no
And when I see you in the street
I pray to God you don’t see
The silent “hell” in “I wish you well.”
If I could turn back time then I would re-write those lines

Track III: See you again, Wiz Khalifa

To the person, I value, dear batchmate, dear friend, dear brother, dear Louie, I will see you again. Someday. That time will come, I know. I believe that every second I type this all for you is a second lost for you to go. It’s painful to know that we, all your friends have to let you go. But I do believe that our friendship will never end.

If two hearts are meant to be friends, no matter how long it takes, how far they go, how tough it seems, God will bring them togetehr to share friendship forever. We will see each other again.

I realize, one of the reasons why people hold on to memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don’t change when everything else does.

I’ll hold on to the numerous treasured moments we had. Always remember that your “Manang Almie” is just a chat away from you. 🙂 Keep safe cuz I care. Have faith in the Lord that things will go right. This is just one of His mighty plans. Never lose hope on anything, okay bro? 🙂 Our life is being written by the same Hand, using the same Pen. Do not worry if you are about to think on going trouble. 🙂 Think Happiness. It is within YOU. 🙂 God bless.

-Your Ate Almie ❤

To: Louie Jade Causing

Summer Dream

I see a day where pink roses blossoms on a wild bushes,
I see a day that I’ll come to conquer the wavy seas,
I see a day where sunny days are shiny and brighter than of today,
I see a day where hearts collide in the 11th hour of May.

I see a day which a witch has chosen by Prince,
I see a day that fairytales happen in any other means,
I see a day where I can jump off a castle and escaped reality,
I see a day where hearts endeavors nothing but fantasy.

I see a day on which birds do fly above my head,
I see a day where butterflies sip only on roses red,
I see a day of dusk but mallows on a hay,
I see a day where I’ll put my hat above my face to where I lay.

I see a day where dreams come true,
I see a day where no one is blue,
I see a day where the yellow sunshine screams,
I see a day of a lover in a summer dream.

-AlmieJane

Droplets of Rain

August 15, 2014

❤

High above from its deepest shines the warming glow of sun. Spinning through the wind, catching the sun’s little particles and chasing the clouds. Frozen valleys cloaked within the vast tip toe, stories behold in sights of an eye.Colorful bliss ran down my veins, seeing the oceans crawlin’ under my feet. Carved in my heart is swollen grace and joy. Wonders of life, golden tree fruitful blessings abided the light tempting shadows. As droplets flow thru the meddow, crunches of growls despite the oddness it brings. Grudges fades, collided with freedom as it flees flawlessly. Rain, Rain, Rain, ain’t you got nothing to say, express your love in a warm way. Stop the cryin’ showers, broken sunshine blossoms at dawn. New beginnings, new love, new life.. Rainbow smiles after the rain. Lil droplets, oh little bitty ones, your beauty is beyond compare, I’ll never see what a man can foresee, this feelin’ can’t go wrong , this feeling is in fire, I come to close my eyes, and feel the breath of life.